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Baby Blues.


It has finally happened. My inability to keep my emotions in check has bubbled over to the surface and something that I promised would never happen to me… Happened today.

I cried.. at work. Not about work specifically, but more on the stress that work caused.

Theres so much going on under the surface that it all sort of bubbled over.

So much to deal with in such a short amount of time left to do it in.


  • Pick a effin hospital to give birth in. Since our original plan of going with the DR who delivered Mahdi fell thru. I’ve been stress about this. Private hospitals are waaaayyyy out of our budget and frankly we were not prepared for Plan B.
  • Putting the crib together… or even some form of nursery for the baby seems impossible right now. Because my house is still a glorified storage room. U’d think we’d be able to find an inch of space for a newborn in this 1600sqft house. sigh.
  • BUY BABY CRAP. Essentials like a breastpump, a carseat.. honestly i think this baby is gonna have to just survive on hand-me-downs until we get our shit together… seriously, how did everything suddenly become so much more expensive this time around. sigh again.
  • sort out confinement details. Urut? no urut? I didn’t do it when i had Mahdi… and it’s something i’ve always regretted. But am i ready to part with money i so desperately need? Is it rreeaaaaaallllyyy important? #stressingmeout
  • Work handover list. dont. even. get. me. started.

Me bursting out to tears every now and then has at least ONE positive outcome. It’s has signalled the husband that he needs to pitch in and help me deal with this stuff. So i’m glad to finally have someone in my corner.


Letter to my Son #1.

My Dearest Mahdi,

It’s amazing to think that it’s only been a year since you came into our lives. Since you feel as apart of us as any of our limbs, we can hardly remember our lives before you came.

I remember last year, on this very day when i first heard you crying, i was so overwhelmed with emotions that i, myself started crying… then i finally laid my eyes on you. You were powdery white, perfect except for a tiny scar on your forehead.. others would have been freaked out by this scar, but to me you were still the most beautiful little man i had ever seen. Plus, Tok Mama reckoned the scar made you look like Harry Potter. πŸ™‚

Ayahanda was so happy to meet you, he was so speechless (which is rare for Ayahanda), and there was a funny incident with your poop, which happened that night while he took care of you because i was resting, it will be my most treasured memory forever.

In this ONE year, We’ve taught you about life, how to clap, about words, music, play, what love and happy means, and about important things such as how to walk and not eat strange objects from the floor.

In return, you have taught us how to be stronger, be more patient, laugh more than our stomach muscles can take, survive on minimal sleep, love deeper than we ever thought possible and pray harder everyday that tomorrow brings us closer together.

You’ve opened our eyes to what real beauty and real happiness means, and our hearts are bursting because you’re in our lives.

Soon you will be old enough to talk, walk and make friends. Remember to always share your toys, be kind to others, even if they are mean to you, keep being awesome like you are now, and never loose your spirit and zest. πŸ™‚

So, As you grow up, always remember that even though sometimes We are busy, know that we are ALWAYS thinking of you. We are both working hard to give you the best life possible because meΒ and Ayahanda love you so so very much.

Happy Birthday Sayang.

Love Always,
Mak and Ayahanda.

My, how time has flown!

Can you believe that Mahdi is turning 1 in less than 2 months?

Has it really been almost a year? That is so CRAZY!

Anyway, i’ve been looking at some things to get Mahdi for his birthday, and i am so spoiled for choices! I simply can’t decide!

Baby Art 1st Year Print Frame
Smart Trike: 3-in-1

Elephant Rocker


I’m currently leaning towards the Trike, but it might take up too much space to keep. So we’ll see how. πŸ™‚
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9 Months!

Time flies when you are having SO MUCH FUN!!!

I can’t believe Mahdi is already 9 months old.. and somehow i’m also shock that it’s ONLY BEEN 9 months since he’s been in my life, cuz i can’t picture my life before him. πŸ™‚

Honestly, I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful and understanding little baby.

Everyone who meets him are always surprised at how laid back and funny he is. He doesn’t pull tantrums (so much), he doesn’t fuss… and he smiles all the time, it makes my heart melt. πŸ™‚

He’s the most wonderful baby in the world (i might be biased.. cuz he’s all mine.)

Baby Thrush..

My poor little Mahdi boy has a yeast infection…

I started noticing some white spots inside his mouth while we were in PD.. at first i thought it was milk..

So when we got back i tried cleaning it but it didnt seem to come off. So i brought him down to klinik and the Dr confirmed that i was indeed a candida (yeast) infection. So anyway, got some oral gel meds to help… hopefully it will help.

Luckily, it doesnt seem to be bothering him much. He’s still a happy little boo.

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We are family

Here’s some of my fave family pictures of us three so far. πŸ™‚
Mahdi and Ayahanda.
And of course Mahdi and Me.
It’s sad that we don’t have that many pictures together… but we don’t really have time to take pics that often. But we definitely have fun as a family. 
I love my family so much. These two boys are my world. πŸ™‚